Saturday, July 31, 2010

escape

credit:  freeasterix

Often I dream of escaping to a different world.
A dreamworld.  My dreamworld.
Where anything and everything is possible.
A place where even the strangest, simplest dreams come true.
Sometimes, when I try really hard, it is as if I can move myself from reality to this place... this wonderful, possible place.  
I smell the grass, I feel the sunshine on my skin, I hear the far-off laughter of the people who exist there.
Sometimes, it is almost as if I'm actually really there...
But when I open my eyes, I'm back.  
Here.
And it's ok to be here.
But I wish - oh how I wish to be able to slowly open my eyes and realise that I'm far, far away.  
That I'm THERE.
If someone should then take my hand and pull me up from the grass where I'll be sitting, I'll SO take it and follow to wherever it might lead.
Maybe, maybe one day.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

A thought for today...

credit:  azalcala

Sometimes, at a certain time of day when the light is just right, the temperature is just right and the sun makes you feel welcome and safe and happy,
Sometimes when you can smell the faint hint of spring and new life and green grass in the air,
Sometimes when the sound of the wind tickling the leaves in the trees or the faint rustle of my cat's hair as she groomes herself sounds juuuust right,
Then I feel confident to say that YES - I do believe in magic....

Monday, July 26, 2010

I wish for dinner, here

credit: brightbazaar

Right now, right at this moment, I wish for the following things:
  1. I wish for a warm, quiet, summer's evening (tonight)
  2. I wish for this table, on a lakeside, set for two (husband & I)
  3. I wish for an amazing meal, cooked nearby and served with very special wine
  4. I wish for a wooden cottage on the lake where we can sleep
  5. I wish for a holiday there, with my husband, just the two of us, for a week
I love to daydream!

2 years today

This picture was taken on our first trip together to Nieu Bethesda in the Karoo
 
Today, exactly 2 years ago, Swan and I went on our first date.  
It was a blind date, set up by our parents.  (I know, how bizarre - not really our cup of tea, but we both felt.. adventurous, I guess!)  
It was a sunny Saturday.  He picked me up from my mom's house and we had lunch in Stellenbosch at a Lebanese restaurant.  
It was fun; it was easy. It was the first of many more to come!  
I really liked him that first day.  
Now I not only like him loads, I LOVE him unconditionally.  
What a man. 

A bit of good advice to start the week with


I can't recall where I found this image, but it's pretty awesome and I just had to post it.  

Have a great week!

Sunday, July 25, 2010

I love yellow doors.


Hi, I'm back.  
I was taking some time to think, went on a road trip, did some star gazing, started the last semester of my year as a student and started thinking of summer (and as result eating better and exercising a bit more).  
But, I'm back.


Don't you just love this yellow door?  I love colourful doors and window frames.
I love bright colours, period.  My favourite of which is red - always has been.

Here's to hoping for a very colourful, positive week!

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

On death and dying and all that goes with it.

I sometimes read what this guy writes, and I think he makes a lot of sense most of the time.  And today he posted something about thinking about the future which really touched me, and made me think.  What he says, is true: (and I quote)

"One of the most liberating discoveries I ever had was that thinking has an insidious snowball effect. Thoughts trigger other thoughts, and if your initial thought carries even a hint of insecurity or worry, subsequent thoughts can explore it and magnify it until you’re profoundly agitated. You can end up pulling your hair out and dreading the rest of your life, just from idle thinking." 

This is me he's talking about.  This is what I'm doing, and what I've been doing my whole life.  And this is what is exactly what I'm NOT supposed to be doing at the moment.  I need to take one day at a time.

"All the suffering is in the thoughts."

(Man, you've said it!  You're RIGHT. You're so, so right.)

"We can only deal with one moment at a time

That should suit us fine, because that’s the rate at which life deals them out. Yet our thoughts make it seem like the future is already there, just ahead of us in line, taunting us while we can do nothing about it."

That is why I'm living one moment, one minute, one little bit at a time these days.  Small steps, don't plan too far ahead, try to stay, live, breathe and act in the moment.  

It works for me. 

It stills my mind, it keeps me calm, it makes me feel good.

And I need to feel good.

credit: muddlingalongmummy

Sunday, July 11, 2010

a roadtrip



'Nog eenmaal wil ek in die skemeraand 
Weer op ons dorp en by ons dorpsdam staan, 
Weer met my rek op in die donker skiet, 
En luister, en al word ek seer en dof, 
Hoe die klein klippe ver weg in die riet 
Uit donker in die donker water plof.'
- N.P. van Wyk Louw
 (Sutherland)

13 July 2010

On Tuesday we'll be married for 4 months.

hazy.


Ok, so things have been a little.. hazy lately.
It's like I can't see/think/act straight.
So I'm trying to figure things out.
And I'll let you know once I have.

Saturday, July 3, 2010

And I want this kitchen.



Oh and, can I have my old life back, please?



I want to live in a tree.  I want to feel it grow, hear the leaves move in the wind, I want to smell the green, simple, solid, stable, steady, strong life it excretes and I want to be part of it.