Time off.

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I've finished my internship and it was great.  I've met special people, done special work and for the first time in my life I can truly say that I had a taste of what job satisfaction must feel like.  

For the first time in my life.

And now I have time off.

A lot of time.

I wish I could spend it in that house, above, with my husband and my mother, sister and brother and whoever they also want to be there.  

I wish I could take walks on the beach, sometimes alone, when the sun has already set.  

I wish I could turn around and see that house, sitting there on the beach in the water and then know that the people I love are in there.  

And that my dad is ok in heaven.  And that he's with us all, in our hearts.

I wish I could take away my mom's sadness.  

Even for only a day.  

So that she can recharge and sleep for 8 hours and eat well and get a bit more colour in her cheeks.

I wish I could make things better for all of us.

Just for a short while.

But only time can do that.

Time, of which I suddenly have a lot.

What should I do with it?